Impossible

We all knew simply
that I could never be happy
and left it at that
as if it were a cold, stone fact

but here i am again today
my mouth shut, but not in dismay
in shock, in awe, completely baffled
but this time at the lack of misery

none of you who knew me
ever could find just what to say
cursing my sullen outlook
chiding me to turn away

yet here i am, eyes wide open
and this is not a dream
not some petty delusion
not another sick, cruel joke

in this day of fleeting reason
fear and chaos our new champion
i've found in myself, in this life, in others
some simple truth, some beautiful peace.