walking past the tv a moment ago getting food...my mom is watching csi...they compared a dead body to a burrito...fucking awesome :)

HAHAHA!

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/article/0,,3-1854972,00.html

:) glad to see my favorite movie had an effect on someone :)

oh god...i'm so amused you have no idea....i know i'm a sick bastard...but thats fucking funny! I mean christ, who'd be dumb enough to mimic a movie with a murder...and ESPECIALLY to blog it online... you've gotta want to get caught to do that. Or rather...she was probably following Young's logic that being a good poisoner would mean to avoid detection...but being a famous poisoner would require being caught. Oh well, everyone have a good day :)

Life and death...

Why is everyone so attached to their lives? i mean shit...i keep tlaking to people and hearing about people dying and how everyones all sad and broken up for years about it. okay...maybe if its your spouse or family but god damn. people really need to shut the fuck up and realize that death is a natural part of life. If i died tonite, fine, i'm sure a lot of you would be upset but life would go on and i'd most likely be in a better place anyways. So who gives a fuck. use what time you have. bottom fucking line, quit whining and do what it takes to either not wind up in the casket like your dear friend, if you're afraid of death, or realize what really fucking matters.

this summer i started to get what matters. doctor thouht i might've had a tumor in my chest. yeah, hows that, possibly having cancer. made me think, and made me shut the fuck up about a lot of things. so fuck everyone, you can all die. just quit bitching. death isn't that scary. just a one way door, so what. i honestly can't wait to see whats on the other side..probably the only reason i would ever kill myself is out of curiousity. i mean god damn...are you REALLY that attached to this life? do you think 99% of it even fucking MATTERS?! Oh, and by the way, if there isn't a god and an afterlife, then it doesn't matter at all. Hope i've made your day better. It doesnt matter because then there would be no consequences for our actions and also, well, whats the point? that would mean globally there just is...nothing. thats it. poof. yeah....right. maybe people should fucking think about what comes next...

Terror

Merriam Webster online dictionary states terror as this: 1 : a state of intense fear
2 a : one that inspires fear : SCOURGE b : a frightening aspect terrors of invasion> c : a cause of anxiety : WORRY d : an appalling person or thing; especially : BRAT
3 : REIGN OF TERROR
4 : violence (as bombing) committed by groups in order to intimidate a population or government into granting their demands terror

now...i'm very tired and very tired of this subject. I'm tired of all the shit surrounding it coming out of our government, our nation, and our people. Lets see...terror... violence commited by a population or government to...oh god, lets see. MAKE THEM OBEY. HM. WHAT DOES THAT FUCKING SOUND LIKE:

Patriot Act: we are now allowed to tap your phone lines and arrest you without promise of a trial or charges brought against you.

i wonder....what would we do without the patriot act. i mean hell, we might be in DANGER because, oh god... the pot supports the terrorists!

so since when are hippies terrorists? or stoners? are we bringing you terror because we'd rather relax using an herbal entheogen than, lets see, buy stupid shit that doesn't matter? we might think for ourselves? we might not plague ourselves with television programs that work to dull our mind and senses to whats happening around us?

lets think of it this way, mental terror : every drug addict, every criminal, every hacker, every communist, every etc, are displayed by the media in a way that ostracizes them from american culture, making it wrong or bad. This shit stems from things that came about a long time ago that we're covering in school currently. One book is definatley the mcguffey readers. Easily, in my opinion, behind a lot of this. These books were once the #1 sellers in america, education the children as they were used to teach them moral lessons and other things, making them all think alike, putting the same ideas into their heads and generally discouraging different thoughts and opinions. Then came radio shows...now, i havne't looked into these very much but i'm assuming its much the same ground.

Television. Television has replaced religion. Television has replaced the books. Television has replaced everything in our culture as THE VOICE. Television, can alter history. it can shape minds. The lies it represents through the news and pop media are amazing and infinite. and unexamined. whoever sees it, will generally beleive it "it was on tv, it happened", a line from the movie wag the dog, is definatley applicable here. In this country especially, if it happens on tv, it is beleivable. Television shows like life with beaver or whatever the fuck it was, with the family always afraid of the communists and cracking down on immoral behavior. other shows, psa's, and programs gladly let everyone know the status quo in this country. These things still happen with family shows like 7th heaven and full house. These values are reinforced, creating a zombie nation of children who will one day grow up to find mtv, myspace, and other things that encourage them to break these ideals and CONSUME. making it into a taboo ritual that will then fill them with a passion for hedonism. Now...lets just think...what, would make a huge boost to our economy, other than a culture of repressed children coming out of their shells and needing things to buy? well gosh, if they're not thinking...they'll spend anything. If we don't show them the poverty and plight around the world, if we don't let htem know how much into debt our country is, they won't know. if we don't conro ltheir thoughts and frigthen them that being different is wrong...they might not conform.

THAT is fucking terror. The subjugation of a people in such a way that, they won't even konw whats going on around them. THe fact that they can manipulate buzzwords that will then cause the nation to panic. The fact that by having the word terror in here, this will probably be read many times by government agencies, my ip will be tracked back to my house, they might begin surveillance of all communication coming out of my house and i'll be red flagged for the rest of my life. Now, how might that NOT be using violence and intimidation against me to control me?

Introduction and purpose

Dont expect anything special, including but not limited to: frequent updates, correct spelling or punctuation, political correctness, sympathy, sanity, and most of all, good taste. Well at least maybe to you. If you disagree with me, observe the title :) have a nice day!

Previous recovered rants

Hey, i like...care about...the future...and stuff...and like... YAY BUSH! oh wait...war...
Current mood: aggravated

SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU DIRTY LITTLE POLITICAL CHILDREN WHO SUPPORTED THE WAR AND NOW DON'T. and yes...i return.

i'm tired of this political little revival in teenagers. i hated hearing pro bush pro kerry shit and now i have to hear war shit. look at it this way...PEOPLE ARE DYING, IF WE COULD JUST GATHER THE BODIES AND FEED THEM TO THE HUNGRY WE COULD SOLVE OVERPOPULATION AND WORLD HUNGER.

but seriously, i'm so tired of all this shit. all of the people who just listen to US news...US sources...do you seriously think we get the true story? its a fucking filter on the truth. to those of you who do your research or are upset about our media...good choice. to those of you who watch the "news" and complain...go suck a fucking tail pipe, you worthless ignorant mall spawn.

another thing pissing the shit out of me: our society seems to have no fuckign morals. oh, except that all you kids who drink and don't smoke hate the smokers GO FUCK YOURSELF. DRINKING IS WORSE FOR YOU THAN WEED, BY FAR. DO YOUR RESEARCH. and so what if i smoke? who cares? at least I'M not out getting drunk and fucking someone, then complaining about it to my friends. i'm sick and tired of sitting around campus and hearing peopel talk about "oh, i fucked so and so, but like, my boyfriend doesn't know, so like...please don't tell anyone, he'll like, flip out or something" yeah...great...infidelity, immorality, and stupidity. i'm starting to worry that only the stupid people will have children, and we'll have a country full cracker spawn moron children with too much money. I mean shit...for those of you who don't live here....a kid at a nearby school got a brand new bmw and decided it wasn't good enough...he wanted a bentley. not only could he have bought one (that rich), but he wanted to cheap the insurance. he hired a friend to steal it and wreck it but all of them were caught. i mean shit...HOW FUCKING LOW DO YOU HAVE TO STOOP?! i take the bus to school when i can't bum a ride from someone else, so shut the fuck up. we need social darwinism back...let the strong and smart survive. lets remove warning labels and make a law that EVERY citizen over 18 must keep a gun on their person at all times. that would really even things out quickly.

oh by the way. EVERYONE JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT POINTLESS SHIT. does it mean anything to anyone that even say...50 years ago people would talk and do thigns that might actually matter? i'm even guilty of this. all we care about is our meaningless little social life filled with small entertainments and distractions so we never get anything done. if everyone just put in 1-2 horus a fucking day to improve our world and maybe fix some of the things we're fucking up...we'd make progress. but no...instead theres mtv and vh1. and think of how bad its gotten? think of in 15 years when your kids are watching some rich bitch backstabbing the shit out of people, couples cheating on eachtoher, and an audience laugh track and all this being rewarded? hm...wonder what message that sends to people. do we even think about whats gonna happen when all this breaks? when people take this shit as how they should live? fuck, i'm happy i'll own a gun soon.

Language and HOW I LOVE IT!
Current mood: content

Planning on this being a long post...so bear with me.....must acknowledge kyle and dizzy for helping me.

First and foremost... LIKE OH! MY! GOD! LOOK AT HER BUTT! IT IS SO BIG! the valley girl thing...has got to go. it's annoying, must've been created by some cynical bastard just to annoy other people, or some retard who was mentally damaged. this is NOT a "cool" thing. all of you can go fuck yourselves. it shows that your brain is mostly filled with cum. same goes for the guys who do it, you annoying little cock sucking fucks. go burn in hell. The valley girl thing has now escelated to a preppy/popular/metro thing, unless i'm completely off track.

For those of you white kids who think you're black, go look in the mirror, and grab a magazine of hollow points. insert the magazine into your daddys gun, because we all know you don't have "your own gat, G", pull the slide or cock the hammer, put it in your mouth, and pull the trigger. make sure you deep throat it like you do your "homies", so you can nearly feel it against your vertebrae, and you'll have no problems. Girls...we know you talk like this too, and its just as annoying. especially for all you girls who think you have to dress like sluts to get attention. cleavage does not equal respect. just because a guys staring at your boobs which are half hanging out and have that fake tan orange to 'em, it doesn't mean he likes you or wants to hear your life story, it means he wants in your pants. but back to the language...I DONT CARE ABOUT YOUR POSSE OR YOUR CRIB OR ANY OF THAT SHIT! DO YOU UNDERSTAND THE WORDS THAT ARE COMIN OUT OF MY MOUTH! we're losing our language to blundering morons...i mean, i can understand if you're ACTUALLY in a gang and shit, and it doesn't bother me, you'll be dead in a year or two from shooting the other gang anyways. and why do the people who are not in gangs want to act like they are? you're too much of a god damned pussy to even pull the trigger in the general DIRECTION of someone. so quit pretending....

...And this leads way to the fact that, at least around here, a lot of the kids who used to act black...."yesterday, i cut myself, because my girlfriend broke up with me, then i cried and wrote a song about it"....have gone "scene". Now this isn't so much as how they talk but what they talk about. Kids complaining is nothing new. But kids claiming to have problems they don't is even more of an issue now. Love is becoming overrexagerated and is losign its sacred value. especially cuz of these damned kids. now, i'm no stranger to self mutilation, but i'm pretty god damned sure you're not in love with someone if you've been going out for two weeks, and they haven't broken your heart when the next day you go off and find another. also, your little cat scratches aren't anything meaningful. i'll save the rest of this for another rant...

MOVING ON! 1 4R3 $0 1337! you.are.fucking.retarded.! some of they symbol speak used to be kool...quite a few years ago. especially before counterstrike. Now , i'm nto proud i can read it or actually konw how to type it, but JESUS CHRIST, IS YOUR KEYBOARD SCRIPTED TO WRITE PURELY IN SYMBOLS?! WHAT. THE. FUCK. IS. WRONG. WITH. YOU. it doesn't make you play better, it doesn't make you seem kooler, it makes you seem like a god damned retarded hopeless pimple ridden pocket protector wearing white jobless schooless kid with no damned future and no hope of ever having a significant other beyond the computer screen, ky jelly, and your right hand. 1337 is over rated (leet) for those of you who don't understand. it was short for elite, for the "elite" hackers who've all probably wound up in jail for doing some stupid jackass hack maybe across state lines with not even a firewall up. I don'te ven get why you'd want to stereotype yourself like the dumb kid who got busted in hackers, i hope you all get raped in the ass. (link from dizzy: http://galactanet.com/comic/79.htm)

*clears throat* I will castrate the next person who says JK! in real life. It's normally happy go lucky ditzy retarded abercrombie "i buy it because its expensive!" suck dick to get around in life and can't drive and cause plenty of accidents then just cry when their car gets a dent and complain about their life skyline/bellevue girls. Can't you just say just kidding? can't you take the time to take some of the air out of your mouth? its not like its going to your brain, anyways. If it was insulting, MAYBE it could be tolerable. but kids are saying LOL...WHAT THE FUCK! seriously, go drink some draino, it'll really help. "but...all the cool kids do it and my t-shirt says im' sutch a 'qt' haha, i'm so clever i bought a shirt i barely get and i had to ask the clerk to explain it to me, three times because i hadnt' heard of the internet because i was too busy sucking my teachers dick to get an A" i don't think i have to say anthing else on this...i hope bell square one year implodes while abercrombie, holister and AE are having a sale.

Now...i would talk about our soft language...but george carlin does a better job than i could ever do.

YOU WHORE! now...since when has that been a nice thing to say to people? even when I insult people, they know its not in a nice joking way most of the time, especially my friends. and i don't laugh and call myself a whore. WHY DO YOU THINK BEING A WHORE IS A GOOD THING! do you really have to make yourself seem sexually available to get attention? i know its a pet peeve of mine, but do you REALLY have to call eachother whores and talk about sex and all? its obvious you really don't have any other reason but to draw attention to yourself. Almost all of the teen lexicon today is designed to do nothing but better yourself, belittle others, or make yourself thought of as sexually available. are we americans really that reliant on sex? is that all we care about? the more i see of this ,the more i hear, the more overtones i witness, i begin to beleive our culture is being run by some 35 year old trekky virgin who fantasizes all day about that one girl from his high school who one day pushed him out of her way and he came his pants. Anyways...fuck all this over sexual language, for a lot of us, its a god damned turnoff. seriously. just stop.

thats all for now...possibly an update later...

LIFT YOUR HEAD UP HIGH....
Current mood: chipper

...AND BLOW YOUR BRAINS OUT! i am so happy today, i got to mess with a stupid person yesterday. not only did they not know that oakland was in the state of california when they lived in LA, they had a stupid as hell name and their mom had them when she was 16. Now...this misguided semi braindead child apparently had a boyfriend who was doing heroin, pcp, weed, and nicotine. She seemed to "want him to quit" but thought it was overall fine. Thank god i could help her...i convinced her to have him snort lye and that it would work out all his problems GOD BLESS STUPID PEOPLE! anyways.... i think we should start telling stupid people to do stupid things, because the gene pool could use some chlorine. I think it would be great if someone, would say goto an emo show, and say...since coke and x are in....sell some lye as coke. That way, we can get entertainment and do clean up the community. Anyways...have a great day everyone, and make sure you're well educated....it WILL pay off

...but but the tv said so!
Current mood: annoyed

and and and it told me that the war is a success and that our troops are there for a good reason and and that all the hollywood celebrities, we should listen to them, they know whats good for america and they'll help me make my choices because they know whats best for me. they're rich, right? and and i can't trust my neighbors because they might be terrorist and and...

well let me make this perfectly clear, right off the bat...NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK ABOUT YOU OUTSIDE OF THE PEOPLE YOU KNOW! UNLESS YOU HAVE A SERIOUS MENTAL ILLNESS OR SOME OTHER EXTREME SITUATION, YOU ARE A FUCKING STATISTIC! now, onto other points. i am completely sickened at the outpouring last election of political views by celebrities. and many times before by this too. and the fact that people actually listen to them. THE ONLY reasong, read the ONLY reason they would advocate one side is because it is to benefit them. gee...i wonder...hm...many complaints, for instance, against bush was that he would make the rich richer, wouldn't that mean movie stars? well gee...hmmm....

Onto my main point, just been saving that up for a while....the tv is not god. you might treat it like god. you might care for it more than god. you might think it cares for you. you might've severely hurt yourself trying to have a physically intimate relationship with it. you may have lost your favorite piece of jewelry inside of it. you may have placed an aborted fetus inside the tube so that it reflects onto the wall, I DONT CARE! well...the last one would be fucking kool but anyways, i'm tired of seeing people structe their lives around the tv. theres more out there, there really is. you might be temporarily entertained by the tv, but in the end, you have less than if you spent that time jerking off. tv is, so to speak, an opiate of the soul. america sits around, watches tv, doesn't think. There is a very strong anti intellectual movement now and i'm tired of it. go pick up a book. or a gun, that works too. No one does anything anymore. very few talk or think about anything. vocabularly is quickly slimming. ethics are spasming on the floor. muzik is all but completely dead. and no one fucking cares because the oc is on. jesus, goto any mall in the country, YOU CAN SEE IT AND LAUGH MORE BECAUSE ITS REAL PEOPLE! and what, with all the blame on the media now, kids are subjected to unfair treament if they listen to anything different/violent/unusual. everyone thinks they'll go columbine. or be into drugs. fucking tired of it. PEOPLE ARE DIFFERENT THAN ON TV....anyways i think i've made my point...

Monday, April 04, 2005

Disclaimer NOTE: the previous rant was not targeted at any one person at all in particular, no i'm not kidding and if you think it was message me, but was targeted at the myspace community as a whole. If you feel offended by the below, i dont' really care, feel free to message or flame. 8:43 PM - 0 Comments - 0 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove

Said with love...of course... And yet again i step up to my platform...*clears throat* This is to those of you who obviously have no life and no friends. I can't stand how you waste my bandwidth, you insignificant whores. This has gotten worse than a prick waving contest. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE MORE COMMENTS OR FRIENDS THAN SOMEONE ELSE DOES NOT MAKE YOU BETTER THAN THEM. I KNOW IT MIGHT MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD ABOUT YOURSELF, HAVING VIRTUAL PEOPLE WHO LOOK AT A PICTURE OF YOU, BUT GEE, WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK. YOU PROBABLY BARELY EVEN KNOW ANY OF THESE PEOPLE AND HAVE PROBABLY NEVER MET OR TALKED TO ANY OF THEM. I'D ALMOST BET YOU NEVER EVEN TALK TO THEM ON MYSPACE OR AIM, YOU JUST WANT MORE FRIENDS. This is wasting bandwidth and wasting time. For christ sake, i'd rather see people complain about their shitty life on livejournal(oh, and they do) than hear people bitch about how some other computer inept dipshit has more friends than they do. Even I have more of a life than you do, and i'm sorry, but thats just pathetic. Another thing that pisses me off is how every girl thinks they have to post a skimpy picture where they look like some cheap whore. I mean i'm not personally complaining but hell, are you all that low? Do you have to whore yourself out to get said friends? I bet if myspace allowed it, half the girls would show topless shots just to get more friends. It's like sucking dick for money or a concert ticket. And the guys who add these people, go jack off to real porn or something, you fucking losers. You probably don't even know how to use google, probably had to have someone tag this site for your favorites. You all make me sick. Why the hell is this site even popular?, someone answer me.

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these are reposts of some of my previous essays/rants from lj/dj...have fun...:)

WHY I SMOKE
an essay by a deranged psychopath

Smoking irritates so many people, and is known to lead to a painful death. This is why normal people are confused by smokers. I smoke, because i hate you, because i don't want to live, and because i like seeing you cough.

I despise humanity. The less of us there are, the better. I knwo i'm a hypocrite, so when i kill all the other hypocrites, i'll save one bullet. "I'm not a hypocrite!" Yes, simply put, you are. And you should burn like the rest. Smoking helps me even things out, because then i won't have to put up with all of you as long.

Life is over-rated. Ever wnoder whats after death? you know something is! So this existence is a bridge. And if you've got your shit together, its only gonna be better, right? So why should ibecome old, crippled, and useless. Why should i suffer through more pain than i have to? Thats right, smoking takes off the shitty years, not like i'll make it there anyways.

Children cough at smoke. I fucking hate children. Whatever happened to sound beatings by your peers? Fuck you, new generation, you make me sick. Heres a smoke ring you can have an asthma attack to. And while i hear the sirens coming, i'll laugh, kick you, and watch as you hemmorage on your undescended testicles. You make me sick.

All in all, smoking helps me get rid of the problems of the world. Just like guns. So, tonite, when you read this, go home and kill yourselves
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Thank god for the media...
seriously...think of where we'd be without the media!

Apparently some people don't like the media! and APPARENTLY they dont want it there! well...its about time someone thanked them!

..1 THANK YOU MEDIA FOR STYLE AND IMAGE! WITHOUT YOU WE'D ALL BE LOST! no one would like, you know, know where to shop, or what the hottest trend is, or what my favorite actor was while he was giving that speech about hwo we should like..help thsoe people...from...that brown country! and we wouldn't even know how to ACT without it! who would've told us that violence is a horrible thing, drugs are in, and that showing your emotions and faking half of them is the way to be! I WOULD BE SO LOST! OH and i wouldn't know who was cool and who wasn't! like i'd have no idea that the weird looking kids weren't good people and weren't worth talking to!

..2 TELL ME WHAT TO LISTEN TO! i have no mind of my own so i'll like whatevers on my favorite station even if they completely redo the whole thing! and when a new style pops up...i'll be all over it. i'll buy all the merch i can, go to all the concerts, and try to emulate them in every way! even if they're a total whore, prissy bitch, whining worthless POS, drug addict, or murderer! I HAVE TO BE JUST LIKE THEM!

..3 I KNEW HE WAS A LYING SACK OF SHIT! i would NEVER have voted for bush before i heard what...whats his name..the uh..other guy did when he was 7 and his mom didn't tell the press! that changes EVERYTHING! i can NEVER, EVER trust him again! and politics matter to me like so much. i mean...never mind that we're in the gulf for oil, and never mind that we've killed over 30,000 iraqi's...i'm SO SAD for the loss of US troops! NO US TROOPS SHOULD'VE DIED! in war, we're never supposed to die. we just kill the other guys, right?

..4 WHAT ARE VALUES?! thats like...what we beleive and stuff, right? like...what we're like...supposed to do i guess. like who we're supposed to date...what we're supposed to do with them...if it matters if we cheat on them. if they miss a date we can just go off with someone else, right? not like they matter, i'm just totally obsessed w/ them and can't let them go until they make one little mistake, then i can do anything i want! after they mess up, they don't matter right?

oh i'm so happy i got all that out...we really need to thank the media...i'd do more but my favorite shows about to come on!
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those are the only ones i can recover...but don't worry, there will be more soon....