The lies of our fathers

I guess its a fair and reasoned claim to say that there is truth out there, so fuck you relativists. Seriously, PLEASE go die. I do mean that.

Now with that in mind, let it be said that our nation, our culture, and now our world(not just now, but it would seem and appear that more-so than ever) are filled with lies. Or at best, half truths, shallow fragments of what could be, or what might be true, but is most often just simply a veil or a dodge of something bigger. Or of responsibility.

The American dream, at its best, or what those who settled here supposedly wanted, now appears to be a cellphone, a diamond ring, or a new car. Symbols of meaningless accomplishments. We just have nothing left inside of us, so we consume everything around us, and we're just all the meantime dodging it.

Our love is simply lust with "taste". Our generation and our parents, have no accomplishments. No war, no pulling out of recession, no moral breakthroughs. Sure, we have technology, which in itself is truly amazing. But its just been misused. I'd bet money theres more porn pics online than there are people in the world. Thank you, thank you so much for corrupting the greatest learning tool, the greatest communal and communicative tool in history, into a desire of the fucking flesh. We're just technologically advanced carnal beasts. Education has failed, its just now a means to a carnal end. For comfort, for a fuckfest, or for food. Thats all we care about.

And we were promised better. I guess thats the part that stings me the most, is that we were told we would do better, that the world was ours. That we could be anything we wanted to be. And in this day and age, unless you're an automaton or in the rat race, you aren't anything at all really. The feeling of ghosting across the streets, off the radar of anyone except those who know that someone cares and are wary and afraid of it, may be nice. But in the end you're alone, minus a few others who might perk their ears or eyes up and smell the bullshit. We aren't even given the chance now.

Honestly, theres little improvement in the world now. And most of it is overshadowed by either celebrity or political drama. If there were a cure for aids, i doubt many people would even remember it in two months, after that latest pop star had an abortion, or od'ed, or fucked a wealthy political figure. Or maybe a priest fucked someone in the ass again, or was found to have a porn and coke habit. Thank you America, for filling the pages of current history with tabloid excepts.

Like, i can SO give great advice on that!

even though i have NO idea what the fuck is going on in my own life. kind of starting to notice that no one really has any grasp over thier own lives let alone the problems in other peoples, let alone anything else in the world. they know how they would deal w/ the situations from THEIR limited perspective, minus emotions and anything else involved, and can only at best hazard guesses with their limited experience as they have no clue the factors leading up to the others decisions.

Its a serious mind fuck though, to know how out of control you are, and incredibly humbling if you can get your mind around it. Or you turn into a control freak or populate your life with distractions to make you think you're in control. Until you find out about the chemical you've been around without even realizing it, the invisible carcinogenic, the soluble poison in the water, and then its too late. You had your dreams, your hopes, your fucking illusions, and then they're gone. We don't really get the chance to do what we want, and in the immortal words of Peter Finch in network, I'M MAD AS HELL AND I'M NOT GOING TO TAKE THIS ANYMORE!. i'm just sick of a lot of things in this life, and maybe i'm just in a free mood today, and it'll all dissapear again tommorow, as i constantly forget the wisdom of the ages that is inherent to all humanity, as we blunder about aimlessly in our lives, forgetting every bit of good thinking we could learn. but hey, at least i'm makin an effort. but hey, maybe if everyone realized that spending money would not bring you more control, we might actually have more people thinking. Go for a walk and open your fucking mind.

written a few days ago...

kinda rough but here goes...

State of decline and a dreaming stasis

It's always a damn shame when you all know that the world is coming to an end. The current epoch is in its last comatose throes as the weight of the general public starts to crush its sternum and lungs, bones beginning to snap, sinews twisting and exploding as the heart is about to be crushed. For the past few years we've had our warnings, we've had all the cryptic talk of the things to come, the boogeymen of today: the financial deficit day of reckoning, the angry foreignors here to kill us, the ozone hole, global warming, and above all else, the fucking rapture.

Everyone knows we're on th edge of something, though no one really knows what. As love lays dead, decadence runs rampant, the minds and souls fading to oblivion in this country as our culture festers inside of us, the consumptive urge simply overtaking any other desire before it could manifest. And no one cares.

If theres one thing that bothers me, its the apathy towards anything real.

We all live in dreams now. Cyberspace isn't even on the iceberg of worry ,as its more real than the television drama or the crisi we create for ourselves so that we needn't worry about anything necessary. "My god, i think i might have cancer, or that i'm fat, or that my {whatever} will leave me, or that so and so might die, or that i'm ugly, or that my favorite tv show might be cancelled, or that i might get fired, or oh my god my kids might be on drugs." Listen to yourselves. Seriously consider what you're worrying about, now i know it might seem that some of those are serious things. They fucking are. But you won't do anything about it, all you'll do is sit there and claim to worry, but truly not care. No one cares about anything anymore. We have television, we have drugs, we have our indulgences. And as long as we can find a new replacement indulgence, we're fine.

In this culture, opium has fallen out of style. We have a higher calling than even religion.

And bluntly, i don't even care. And i doubt you do either.

Kind of hard to care about a world that gave up on itself. In our sleep, its like the whole nation rolled over and said fuck it, someone else will do it. I don't want to. I can accomplish me dreams or create easier ones. Who gives a fuck anyways, its not like its ever going to happen. And that was it. Poof. Everything that could have been was gone. These days even the people are getting weaker, its like a damned plague hit and all of a sudden everyone is unhealthy, unhappy, and on a crash course to destruction either physically mentally or emotionally. I think a nation wide mass suicide would at least help to get people to care again, to somehow yank the chain of the global unonscious wide awake and realizing whats going on. The youth of this nation are drifting, and we're not going to stop anytime soon.